Journey to Your Deepest Self

Another Way

She didn’t know there was another way Another lover she could have The hatred she knew as her friend Used it to keep her alive Used it to feel alive She didn’t know another way She didn’t know love wanted her She’d been rejected so long ago Rejection knocking the wind out of her Gasping for breath that didn’t come She imploded wishing it would all end She didn’t know another way She yearned to believe that it could be different Terrified to open to another reenactment Guarded against the pain she nursed along Not knowing it was her choice Not noticing the change Included her if she chose To open to another way She’s getting braver Willing to know herself and to learn Willing to know she’s done the best she could Willing to risk it all For something different to be born Something worth living for Something that brings waves of blessed relief Calming, soothing, healing all the places that were hurting She’s realizing that it is her choice To open to another...

To My Younger Self

Dear One, I want you to know something very important, that no one has ever told you before. So please listen closely, because this is so important. It’s okay that you hated your mother. It’s really okay. You couldn’t have done better than you did. It was horrendous having her as a mother. You were all alone, so scared, and afraid of her. She attacked you, emotionally, energetically, even physically. You did your best to love her, to stay open, and it wasn’t possible. It was too painful. Of course you would want to push all of that away. You had to close down, in order to survive. Please don’t be hard on yourself. You are a wonderful person. You are loving. You are caring. You are a beautiful, pure child. You can’t expect yourself to be able to deal with forces that even the adults didn’t know what to do with, huge transpersonal forces. Your mother, she also did the best she could. She took in so much denial energy in her life. She didn’t know what to do with it either. She was like you in that way. She did love you as best as she knew how. It was hard for her. She wasn’t able to be there for you in a way that a mother should be there for her child. She didn’t know how. She was terrified, so traumatized. It was more than she could handle also. Now I’m grown up and I can be there for you. You don’t have to carry this alone anymore. I love you so much. I’m going to deal with the denial energy. I’m going to give it so much love that it will melt. It won’t be able to continue any more. It’s the love that’s going to fix all of this. It’s the love that’s why all this happened. And it’s all okay now. You’ve done your job and you’ve done it well – delivering the denial energy to me so that I with the Folks can transmute it now. Thank you sweet one. You’ve been so brave. You took on a big job, and you’ve done it well. It hasn’t been easy. You’ve done an amazing job of finding your way through all of it. Please know that I am so grateful to you. The Folks are so very grateful. And you can give it to me now. You don’t have to carry the burden any more. You are free to open to the love fully. It’s all okay....
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