Journey to Your Deepest Self

I Want to Be the Darkness

“I want to be the darkness!”
She said.
Not knowing how profound
Her desire and courage went.
Now I’m here with her
Tumbled into this place
Once more
With her leading me
Showing me the way
She always has been
Calling me to come down
To where heart was lost
A very long time ago

She wants me to stay here forever now
Never leave again
I’ve been prone to leaving
Hating the darkness
The decay and stench here
The ugliness of this place
Of all the hurt and loss that’s ever been
I’ve done all I could to stay away from here
When she’s pulled me down
Once more
To the place where everything good withers
A slow painful decay
How could anyone want to be here?

I’m walking in the land of the dead now
Or so it seems
With her
Not alone anymore
I’ve brought a small bit of light
My willingness
To bring love here
However I can
For as long as it takes
No place else to go
That feels more real
Or more worthwhile being in
No more avoiding
What lives in the darkness
I’m not leaving anymore

I don’t know what I can do here
Don’t know what will happen
To me, to her, to it all
I just know it has to be
That she is included
Her voice heard
Her passion honored
Or else we’re all doomed
To be drawn into the abyss
Of heart break

So here I’ll stay
This small flicker of light
I’ll keep tending
That’s all it takes
Or so she tells me
A willingness to be transformed
By the fire of this place
That only burns away the illusions
We’ve all been pretending
Maybe the tides are turning now
Time for something new
Something yearned for
From the very beginning
Maybe the original spark
That was drawn by the darkness
Will stay
So something new
Something precious
And wanted
Can be born


One Response to “I Want to Be the Darkness”

  1. John says:

    Wow Betty, thanks! This is a really sweet piece, and edgy too. Infuses me with courage and determination. Let’s not just try to save the darkness, let’s be it. And love it. And love ourselves being it!

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